Sunday, June 1, 2014

DAY 96/365, 170 LBS, Up 2.4 LBS, TWL 14.6 LBS

Started off the day well as far as eating. Went downhill after 4:00. Definitely stress eating. Craving sweets, ate them. Still wanted more, ate more, still wanted more. Never felt satisfied. Key is to catch this behavior and NOT eat and find something positive and non- food related to do to alleviate the stress.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Sunday, May 25, 2014

DAY 89/365, 171.2 LBS, Up 3.6 LBS, TWL 13.4 LBS

I'm glad I logged my food today. In my mind, I had gone way over my calories, much more so than what I did in reality. I wish I would have logged as I was eating today instead of going back and logging at the end of the day. I think if I had seen that the blue bell ice cream I had was within my calorie allotment, I might have been less likely to have an "I've blown it" attitude.

I know that attitude is self-destructive. I know logging in advance is always a better plan.

Instead of looking at the last two days as a failure, I want to look at where I messed up, show some grace toward myself and make better decisions tomorrow.

Tomorrow is going to be a challenge because we are eating with friends and my husband smoked a brisket and ribs. I want to eat some because the meat is delicious!

My plan is to exercise first thing in the morning, log my food and stay within my calorie goal for the day. I plan on being 100% GREEN tomorrow. I know drinking the water and exercising will help me eat less as well.

Monday, May 19, 2014

DAY 83/365, 175 LBS, Up 5.8 LBS, TWL 9.6 LBS

I don't have a lot to say. I had planned to eat healthy while out of town but then I didn't do it. I followed up being out of town with blue bell ice cream yesterday and today. Then I had Mexican food twice today and a margarita tonight 4 days of too much food, salt and sweets is probably going to make for a few ugly days on the scale. The key is going to be to get back on track tomorrow. I'm eating lunch out tomorrow but I will make a healthy choice.

DAY 82/365, didn't weigh, out of town

DAY 81/365, out of town, didn't weigh

DAY 80/365, 169.2 LBS, Up .8 LBS, TWL 15.4 LBS

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

DAY 77/365, 167 LBS, Down 2.2 LBS, TWL 17.4 LBS

I have had a few very good few days as far as numbers go. However, what is more important is that I am feints hints of "normal." That probably sounds weird but in my eay adulthood before I lost a healthy perspective concerning food I used to eat when I was hungry, stop she. I was satisfied and eat normal foods in normal portions.

It has been a long time since I have had that normal perspective. I have been black/white & all or nothing for MANY years. If I are healthy, I ate TOTALLY healthy AND exercised a lot and was "perfect." However, the moment I was less than perfect (in my skewed perception) I went to the opposite extreme. I would eat as unhealthy cood in the largest quantities possible and wouldn't exercise because in my skewed perception, I had "blown it" (not been perfect) so I might as well eat what I wanted and start fresh tomorrow. Wow--what an unbelievably UNHEALTHY mindset and emotional roller coaster to choose to live to live by for so many years.

This mind set left no room for error anywhere -- I. Other words no room for GRACE. No room for LIFE. No room for ICE CREAM! Seriously, I could never eat anything good and enjoy it because I felt guilty and it would either be the beginning of ANOTHER roller coaster ride or would be the middle of a roller coaster ride which also meant a big upswing in weight.

Monday, May 12, 2014

DAY 76/365, 169.2 LBS, Down .2 LBS, TWL 15.2 lbs

I didn't eat enough calories today especially for working out 2 hours. However, I ate when I was hungry, made healthy choices, and chose not to eat after 8:00 pm. I am actually hungry right now but I'm going to drink some water and head to bed.

I have a phone meeting with my "Life Coach" Sherry on Tuesdays. Last week I set the goal of weighing under 170 tomorrow when we meet again. I knew I would be tempted to binge because I had been eating pretty healthy and because it was Mother's Day. I am happy to report that I navigated the challenges with success. Feels good to not feel controlled by food, eating or circumstances.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

DAY 75/365, 169.4 LBS, Up .2 LBS, TWL 15 LBS

Had a great day. Put into practice "moderation" philosophy. I didn't log anything until the end of the day, but I was within my calorie alotment! Feels great! I even enjoyed ice cream with my kiddos after lunch today. I just got a "junior" scoop in a cup. It is amazing to me that I can eat ice cream and a delicious steak all in one day and still be within my calorie goal!!

I expect my weight will be up tomorrow because I didn't drink all my water today and the yummy steaks my awesome husband grilled for dinner were pretty heavily seasoned... which will probably equal water retention. No worries! #feelingconfident

DAY 74/365, 169.2 LBS, Down 1.4 LBS, TWL 15.2 LBS

DAY 73/365, 170.6 LBS, Up 2.0 LBS, TWL 13.8 LBS

Monday, May 5, 2014

DAY 69/365, Didn't weigh, TWL 12.8 LBS

I had a great trip to see my parents and I am so thankful for all the help and support I received to make this trip happen. I am also thankful because I was able to navigate traveling and being in Farmington with MODERATION!!!

I had wonderful food in NORMAL portion sizes and feel very good about how I handled the food and exercise choices I made over the last 5 days.

It is amazing what can happen when I quit sabatoging myself with poor choices, I am very intentional about healthy choices and I ditch the "all or nothing" attitude and adopt a "everything in moderation" attitude. Wowza!!! I really can do it!!

Sunday, May 4, 2014

Saturday, May 3, 2014

DAY 67/365, Didn't weigh, TWL 12.8 LBS

I have done really well this trip. We ate at Outback tonight to celebrate my parents 58th anniversary. I hadn't planned on eating out so I looked at the menu online before we got to the restaurant. I knew I had healthy options.

Of course that meant I had to forego the " bloomin' onion" and bread with yummy butter before my healthy meal arrived. Although I did feel tempted to eat those things, I did not give into temptation. I was satisfied with my healthy meal and I still had enough calories left to enjoy a homemade smoothie for dessert when I got home. I make the smoothie with unsweetened almond milk, nonfat Greek yogurt, frozen strawberries and sweetener. It is such a delicious and healthy treat for a snack or dessert!

Friday, May 2, 2014

DAY 66/365, Didn't weigh, out of town.

Had a good day. Making healthy choices and love the way the healthy food tastes. I'm fortunate to enjoy healthy food.

Thursday, May 1, 2014

DAY 65/365, 171.8 LBS, Down .8 LBS, TWL 12.8 LBS

I have had a very long day today traveling to see my parents. My dad is not doing well health wise so it is a stressful time. I have been very inconsistent with my eating habits lately and my weight has fluctuated greatly. Therefore, I decided before I left home today that I was going to eat healthy on this trip. My weight has been coming down the last few days and I do not want to sabotage myself anymore by regaining the weight I have lost (AGAIN!)

I normally make very unhealthy choices when I am here, because I eat a large volume of food and most of it is not very healthy. However, I did great today! It really came down to the fact that I decided before leaving home that eating outside of my daily calorie allotment wasn't an option.

It was no surprise that I found myself roaming the pantry and fridge (as is my normal habit when I am here). I had to very consciously and intentionally think through my choices while contemplating what to eat. I was not hungry, I was stressed, and wanting to eat out of habit.

I feel very good about navigating today successfully. It is very empowering to tackle a bad habit head on and make the right choice. Of course the remaining days of my visit will probably prove to be challenging. However, I know if I am intentional and focus on one choice at a time I can do this.

Thursday, April 24, 2014

DAY 58/365, 170.8 LBS, No Change, TWL 13.8 LBS

DAY 57/365, 170.8 LBS, Down 4.6 LBS, TWL 13.8 LBS

I am up WAY TOO LATE, getting ready to go out of town tomorrow. I plan on taking a nap when I get to the retreat center. Although I am over on my 1700 calorie goal, since I exercised twice today, I have not eaten more than I have burned.

My plan for the 4 day retreat is to eat healthy and exercise daily.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

DAY 56/365, 175.4 LBS, Down 3 LBS, TWL 9.2 LBS

Had a very productive day. I have been home two days in a row and have brought some peace back into our lives by getting house picked up and clean.

I am changing girls' clothes out for spring and purging things they don't like and therefore don't wear. I have 6 large bags of clothes to give to a friend and I'm not finished yet! Also have given quite a few toys away. Feels SO good to manage LESS STUFF.

Also feels good to really accomplish a lot of tasks. Haven't even thought about eating/food!